Single (not) ready to mingle

It's been a while since I've written something so I thought I'd take sometime out of the day to sit down and write what's been on my mind. Lately, I've been having a lot of alone time and I'm loving it! When I say alone I mean not being involved with anyone or speaking to anyone, just being... well... single I guess? I decided to take as much time as I can to be on my own and enjoy my own presence. Even if it means turning down potential partners, I've learnt that it's okay to say no to people and to place myself first. Even if they could be the right person for me, I wouldn't want to waste anyone's time especially if I'm not fully committed to getting to know them romantically right now.

Love is a beautiful thing. Being in a relationship is beautiful too (if it's healthy of course). I guess I'm just at this stage where I feel like I can't give someone love until I can fully love myself, sounds a little cliche but that's how it is. When I'm interested in someone I've noticed I put in a lot of effort and time to the point where sometimes I forget about myself. Some cases I've been taken advantage of and friends always say "you're too nice". But that's besides the point, I think I just haven't met the right person that reciprocates the same amount of love as I do. It's so important to not settle for less than you deserve because life's too short and you should be with someone that loves you unconditionally. Here's a little quote that resonates well with this post:

"I hope you have a relationship thats real for once and you are sure of where you are in their life. I hope you're not a distraction or a past time or something to be used. But a love, a sweetheart, a muse. I hope you are something to somebody and that they are just as crazy about you as you are for them" 

I've had a lot of moments where I questioned where I stand in someones life and it's not the best feeling but that's already a sign you deserve better. So don't stress if you have to let go of some people, have faith there's something better out there for you! I understand how some people feel a little pressured to find someone especially when they're getting older. My only advice is to enjoy the time you have alone because you will learn a lot about yourself and that will help when you're ready for a relationship. I've learnt how to be a better daughter, sister, cousin and friend to important people in my life and it feels rewarding to be surrounded by people that bring out the best in me.

So make plans with your friends, do what you love and enjoy every second of this time being alone! I'd like to think that being your best self will attract the right person.

Much love, Jen.