Nothing but love

I feel incredibly blessed and happy with where I am mentally and emotionally in life right now. When you've been through the worst, you eventually learn how to pick yourself up and things suddenly become clear. A year ago, I was a completely different person... I felt hopeless, insecure and incredibly depressed because I felt like I lost the girl who I once was. After spending so much time on my own and being surrounded by the people that genuinely love and care about me, it was as if I finally felt like myself again. I was this happy, bubbly, glowing girl that never needed anyone but myself to feel loved!

I'm getting a little emotional writing this, but I am so grateful for my family and friends for never giving up on me, especially my parents. They had to see their daughter go through the worst and I feel so bad for putting them through that because no parent wants to see their daughter sad. And to my friends who always reminded me that I deserved the very best, I would never have gotten to where I am now without your love and support.

Life will never be perfect but it's the days where you feel grateful and content that makes it worthwhile. I may not be where I want to be in life right now, but I've always told myself baby steps... you don't need to accomplish everything all at once. It takes time. And to me being mentally and emotionally happy is my first accomplishment! Everyday I'm learning. And there's still so much more for me to learn. I've learnt that finding yourself takes time and we humans will always be a work in progress.

So this post is to remind me that I am doing so well and to keep pushing further and to not be too hard on myself because I will accomplish great things in the future!

Much love, Jen.

Sunrise

On the 31st of July I watched my first sunrise of 2018. It's something I've been wanting to do for a while but never came around to doing it... because 1.) I'm not really a morning person and 2.) I value my sleep, but I figured this one time will be an exception. My last memory of watching a sunrise was in primary school with my best friends. This was probably around 2005 which was a long long time ago - over a decade to be exact lol. I remember sleeps overs were a big deal in primary school, it was exciting and it meant no sleep just girl talk. And that's what we did... talked all night till it was eventually the morning. I vividly remember looking at the clock and telling the girls it was almost 5am. So we got our blankets, sat on the trampoline in the backyard and huddled up together watching the sunrise. It's a cute and innocent memory that I'll always remember.

Back to the present, the walk to Hornby Lighthouse was calming and refreshing. You're given a view of the beautiful ocean and once you're uphill you can see everything! I enjoyed it even though I was half asleep, it was most definitely worth it waking up at 5am. I sat on the rock in silence and just watched the sun glisten on the ocean. I felt at peace for the first time in days and for a moment it was as if all my worries were gone. Thank you mother nature for blessing this world with such beauty.

It was a beautiful morning and I'm glad I have another memory of watching the sunrise that I can cherish.

Much love, Jen.